Everything is never as it SEEMS...Yet...

It’s been a while since I let my mind flow
There’s so much going on yet I dont know how to let it show…
Ok, so gaining weight turns me off from myself but when doesn’t that happen??
Things are turning around…great relationship…graduated…Cat-dog…completing hours
yet none of this seems to matter!
Somehow there’s something not right…something that feels like a distant star
I wonder, will I make it? Can I do it? Will it all work out?
But then I remember there must be SOMETHING keeping me going…
Realizing I must keep breathing
In order to keep reaching
To receive HIS teaching…
This is just me expressing what I may be missing.